I got serious insomnia recently that caused me not enuf sleep these days ! ARGHHHHHHH..Dear insomnia,Please stay far away from me pls,i reali need a nice sleep seriously :(
it is reali suffer bcz i only can sleep up to 2hrs these days :(
I wanna get bek my sleeping time !!!!!
i dun wanna think anything at all ,bt Miss Brain is stil outta my control .
Well,i followed my jimuii Eve to her hometown-Pahang tis morning , we started our journey around 1.30 in the midnight ,and it took us about 4hrs to reach because we stopped by a restaurant for food when we are on the way .
i need to thx her so much for accompanying me these few days and taking k of me :)
we share our problems and she always give me advices that is true .
she is reali a great friend . iloveu jimui :)
i will get a new number soon bcz im gonna stop using tis num as it is a subbed line number with my ex.
i wil be staying at pahang until 22nd jan,and rush back to kl before 23rd jan because i gotta work from that day until 26th January.
hmmmmmm..im currently figuring where shud i stay after tis . Do u guys have any nice place to intro ?
i can't stay at my own hse because it's nt convenient there .
The LRT station is too far away from my hse and there is no taxi gonna pass by my hse normally .
hope i can find a nice shelter soon . i need to get a job now to cover the rental payment ,hope to get a job at any branded makeup counter that i wanted ,God Bless me :)
Planning to meet up my friends which i stop contacting them after i couple with her .
Even though i lose u , but i still get back my own life . Well ,everything has its good and bad side .Im tough enuf to bare all these things that happened these days .
Pahang is a reali nice place to be if u r facing problems and need a break . I said it is a nice place to be is not bcz of there are many facilities here,but its a place where u can find silent and harmony here .
i stop thinking of u that often now . But sometimes, i do miss you alot, everybody needs time to forget especially when it comes to love .
i hope u can take gud care of urself without me .
You are careless , and need a person to be there for you everytime,everyday .
But im just not the one that u needed .
Imissyou ♥
Lastly,a song for myself .
Pussycat Dolls - HushHush I never needed you to be strong I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs I never needed pain, I never needed strain My love for you is strong enough you should have known I never needed you for judgment I never needed you to question what I spend I never ask for help I take care of myself I don’t why you think you got a hold on me And it’s a little late for conversations There isn’t anything for you to say And my eyes hurt, hands shiver So look at me and listen to me because… I don’t want to stay another minute I don’t want you to say a single word Hushhush Hushhush There is no other way, I get the final say Because… I don’t want to, do this any longer I don’t want you, theres nothing left to say Hushhush Hushhush I’ve already spoken, our love is broken Baby hushhush I never needed your corrections On everything from how I act to what I say I never needed words I never needed hurts I never needed you to be there everyday
It's The fourth day we ended our relationship ,the truth is__ i do miss her for sure.
Unfortunately , our relationship is really over.
To let go a person that stays in ur heart all these while is not easy at all , but life will not always go on like how we wanted it to be.
i reali tot of giving both of us a last chance to make it work . But u already choose to give up on me and did every single little thing tat can break my HEART .I Pray for you silently to be happy and found someone that suits u more in the future , im sorry for the way i let it go ,but thats the only way i found it is the best for both of us . U will always gonna be the one in my heart .I will keep every single moment i spent with you on my heart always .You are the best BF i ever had .♥
Recently , i spent my days with my jimuii and they led me to noe more friends .
they reali helped me alot on cheering me up and be there for me when i fall .
I truly appreciate every crazy actions they done just to make me smile :)
they are just great :) HUGSSSSS
however,the greatest person is my mom.She noes im not in mood and she guaranteed to be there for me 24hrs . She called me and keep in touch with me just bcz she is too worried .
im glad i got a mom that stil love me so ,even after i had done so many bad things to her that caused her hurt .
I LOVE YOU MUMMY ♥
Lastly,I hope that u can cheer up with the appearance of ur colleague and friends .
dun worry,without me,u still can be fine with ur life :)
Maybe we are too tired to face tis relationship anymore ,mayb we found we are no more suitable for each other ,or mayb we deserve better ones in our lives .
